Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Flower Petals

I love facebook. I hate facebook. He loves me. He loves me not. Argh.

I love facebook because of the connection I have with my mama community, since we moved there from another forum. I wouldn't give up those connections for the world.

What I hate is having to "connect" with other people, some of whom I would really rather not connect with. I understand that many people think that FB is a great networking tool, and great for getting you in touch with people that you've lost touch with, but some people I don't want to reconnect with.

Take my old neighbor/pseudo 8th grade boyfriend. Umm... no.

Or this guy that the husband and I used to hang out with and smoke pot with all the time, pre-baby days, and who eventually pissed me off by starting to live/sleep on my couch and eat second/third helpings of the food I cooked without thanking me. I haven't spoken with him in about 4 years. He's sent me 3 friend requests, and when I denied them all, he sent me a message asking if I remember him (he uses a fake name on FB that I do know).

How do I respond to that without seeming like a jerk?

I don't know why, but I don't feel the need or the want to share my FB life with everyone and anyone whom I happen to have met at some point in my life. Or never have met but just know through the internets. It's just such a sticky line.

Maybe it's because I feel particularly vulnerable at this time in my life, and want to keep things as close as possible.

I love me. I love me not.